Let's start with one thing: I need to start blogging more and more especially with how hard it is to express oneself in any format on the web. Unfortunately, blogging has died since the last decade and nobody likes reading so I'm stuck here dicking around trying to figure out how to make a blog even remotely appealing. It's truly terrible. Truly. I have to learn *GASP* HTML and CSS. AAAAA.
Keep in mind I'm not the greatest programmer in the world but I am "trying". Simply put the reason I left bearblogs is because of one simple thing... I can't post images!! Like this cool picture of Lain for example:
Otherwise, I'm back to doing what I was usually doing. Typing my opinions in and seeing if they stick in my head or in the public's mind. (If anyone is even reading this.)
Learning was incredibly stressful today. I tried doing so many things all at once. Which was rather stupid of me lmao but it's too late now. I tried making a "video" but I got too stressed out when trying to say what I think.
Damn I was so exhausted that I stopped, fell asleep and now I'm back. Coming up with ideas is hard and I'm not willing to put effort in if it provides nothing for me overall. Off topic but I did find a 1TB HDD for about $20 so its a good steal. Pretty much using it to store all my crappy music. Inveitably I'll either use it to store my music for later or store it on my PS2. I should mod it at some point to include a new quieter fan but I haven't done so yet nor touched my PS2 since I took that SSD off it. Since now I have a hard drive that works with just plugging in I'm all good.
Truly the last thing I will say is that I think I should personally use my paperwhite more since it's just been sitting there for the longest time. Need to keep on my light novels.
I honestly have no idea what to put in this thing other than my solid opinions and emotions. Its not gonna be a clear and honest diary or anything. Just general perspective and ideas that I thought up while going through my day to day. It hopefully will allow me to clear up my thoughts and see if I can view a whole new perspective.
First of all, today is my last day off for the week before I go back to my minimum wage job. To be fair, I've been making way more money than when I was doing that food delivery job. The cost of gas far outweighs the actual benefit of the job plus the lack of actual consistent, guaranteed pay as you get paid by commission leads to an overall inconsistent and a race to the bottom sort of feel. Not a fan but I do miss it. The drives at the night. The lonely feel of it all. The music. I really do mean the music. That job had fueled my passion and love for music.
Music is truly my lifeblood through and through. I always was a very strange child when it came to music. Though video game music is rather generic now, back then it was a rather odd pick. Then again, I'm no different with my strange gothic picks. I still view Cocteau Twins as the pinnacle of dramatic beauty especially Lisa Frasier's vocals. If there is one female vocalist I will devoutly respect, its her. Her vocal work is incredible even the song I'm listening to now on my iPod: "The Itchy Glowbo Blow" is an absolute masterpiece. Gorgeous and dreamy like all her work. Including Treasure and Heaven or Las Vegas, they help me picture visions of either abandoned, cobweb filled mansions or dreamy skylines and being under a blur of lights in the strip. I deeply respect her work and will hold it to a personal respect. My memories of listening to some of her work while driving alone in the dead of night, heading home will always be a dream of mine. A comfort. I always have fallen in love with the night.
Besides my lonely obsessions with music, I have been playing Halo 2. Pretty neat experience. Been so long since I've actually played anything proper. It is rather odd how much it takes from specific biblical elements with the vague ideas of prophets and arbiters. Otherwise, its similar to Evangelion. Purely Aesthetic.
The last aspect I've pondered in my mind has been the fact that RockBox is absolute shit. Buggy, trash tier optimization. If anyone is working on the optimization to this program, I would like to wish you to reevaluate on your skills (coming from someone with little to no programming expertise of course :/ ). Constant crashes. Can't play my music. AND THE CONTROLS. Holy fuck. It clearly was NOT designed for the iPod. Let's start with the fact you have to HOLD the skip button to move the track. You might say its easier than the iPodOS's solution but there was clear and precise intent. With iPodOS, you press the select button and then rotate the wheel based on the placement of the track. Then when you're done, you press the select button again and its back to normal. In RockBox, the select button just sends you straight back to the menu. So how do you go forward or rewind?? You HOLD the respective SKIP button. Then it will quickly go to the right time, so you have to pay real close attention and have quick reflexes or you'll either be too early or late and if you press the button again, it will skip the entire track!!! iPodOS was incredibly designed to force interactivity with such a simple task as rewinding and forwarding a track and use the click wheel to its advantage. Terrible design for RockBox all around!
Anyways, sorry to end on such a terrible note but I'd rather just rant about something that has been on my mind for quite sometime. This is just practice. So I hope I can ponder some more!